Goggles In Space

Children After you were born, for many years i haven't thought about what 'i' like and what i don't. There was nothing called ME time until you guys planted your eyes on the laptop and plugged earphones from dawn to dusk. I was very happy with what i was doing for you. I was fine cleaning the floor every day at 11pm in the night, washing and many times ironing your wet clothes, thinking my head off on what to cook, taking you for classes, seeing you win in competitions. You both meant my universe but like many working mothers , i had my ups and downs too. No one supported my mood swings but your smiles and hugs brought the glee back in me. In every step of success, my tears of joy was there and would be. I urge you to wake up in the morning and stretch because the positive energy from the sun during the day cannot be found at night. I urge you to reduce water wastage ,reduce flush usage and reuse water for you and your grandchildren. My life is more than half over. I ge...

Yesterday i caught up with my engineering collegemates and hostelmates - Deepti,Reshma and Manju. We were meeting after about 2 years .Pre covid we had met with kids at a nice restaurant Bombay Brasserie and had lots of fun. After that we hardly connected on watsapp or phone but yesterday we spent a nice ,bright afternoon at the open lounge bar called Shift in HSR -About hostel days , whats going with the families, parents siblings , jhow each of us were tired of the jobs etc. Deepti was into painting, paper toy making etc and she just loved it. Reshu was detected of cholestrol and was on a strict cleansing diet. Alas ! She has gone back to her college day "Ujala kuppi"figure..Manju was the same and we catch up once in a while with Infy lunchmates, the last one being a couple of months ago at 46 Ounces. We just spoke non stop clicked pictures. Reshu told me she admired my brown eyes and i never knew it ! No one told me and i always lived in complex of being fat, dark and hair...

We were born in the same year, in different cities. While we both grew horizontally and vertically, the growth was very different. Our surroundings, support system and stakeholders were also different. Along with other things, learning has been a focus area for both of us all through. Fortunately, we met in 2003 , a rendezvous , which was to turn into a deep connection lasting for almost two decades. The journey onwards has been nothing less than a 'dream come true' for me and rewarding. Initial feelings of freedom and curiosity slowly turned into strive for excellence . My long time dream of going to US turned into reality. Being in Silicon valley amidst IT companies and multi culturalism brought in a fresh mindset and perspective change.  While we both had our ups and downs, the fundamental values which drove us towards the goal were similar. Our journeys were in varied directions but towards the same vision and mission. This year we both celebrated the 40th milestone birthd...

My bday cake by Sree said so...Totally loved that. Yes, i want to look and feel fab. Not dull even for a single moment. But i am scared al the time of that day when i will be driven to the operation theater and my brain will undergo the surgery. Let me forget it for sometime. Yesterday was a particularly fabulous day. First was the Sep 14th midnight cake cutting followed by a small bday present (Sleeveless top and lipstick) from Sree and a paper gift from Appu. The cake was super good and after eating lots, we all slept again. As usual woke up at 6 , fixed tea and breakfast for the family ,played baddy and then got to work. Though availing leave from office had been in my mind from last 1 week just to chill but i let it go due to lot of work. Sree left for work as they had a 1 day work from office .It kept popping in mind that this is probably my last before the surgery though i am still not even a %  ready for it. I had even imagined even a family lunch at Taj for my 40th but i wa...

Just got back after meeting Dr K Parameswaran at Indo American with PET scan and other reports taken at Sakra Hospital, Bangalore over the last few weeks. My mind prayed his words would sound miraculous and say surgery is not needed .Impatiently waiting alone in the patients waiting area. Now i am used to doc visits alone though it is one of the most painful things. My name was called after about an hour's wait and within 3-4 minutes of sharing my reports , doc asked on my face - so surgery rt ? I succumbed to God's choice ! When i got home, in laws wanted to know what had happened. I merely said same thing as the other doctor said and what followed was "so tumor and operation " alle ?  Will insurance cover it ? I was lost for words. I can feel we are rich today and even if insurance wouldn't cover, what i have earned through these years can cover it but the whole point was it was a brain surgery. Blunt and right into my heart. What if this had happened to their d...

This is my first notice period as i have never out my papers yet, Infy being my first and perhaps the longest ever ! And tis time me and Sree both are on NOTICE! We are both embarking on new jobs almost around same time. While he is joining as Sr Director in Ness Digital Technologies , an Israeli Indian Company, I am joining Accenture as Manager. Super excited at this juncture of life but I wonder if God has different plan. (will need another blog) . I have been job hunting actively since last year when LinkedIn project was giving me hard time and management support was lacking. The PM in my team (apparently a mallu and good friend) who was supposed to report to me was having ego issues and made my life worser. The good work done , my commitment and long hours were never appreciated. So after very long, got my resume updated and put it up on LinkedIn website. Job hunting is like shopping. You don't get what you "when" you want. But at a time when you really dont need it. ...

Intimacy is not about sex. It is about trusting ,listening , sharing, caring and assuring you are there for your life partner.  Sreetta You often told me we are ONE and I took it by the word. Over the years it changed my life. I believed that you are there for me, with unconditional love and support. It gradually made me dependent on you and took away my independence. I was blind with love and respect for you. But the reality is far from this promise. Neither you or kids were dependent on me for anything except meals, laundry or the household chores. Its a hard reality you guys can live the entire life without me ! But if i want to go on a vacation or file my tax or play baddy or go to locker to get my gold or sleep well at night or even walk in the community , i needed you !  From Mar 2020, we are all home. I was happy cooking meals and cleaning up while juggling with work. But slowly , it was just upon me while you could have supported me better. Watsapp and media changed yo...