Goggles In Space

Today is India's 72nd Republic Day Parade. Kaithapram Damodaran Namboodiri awarded Padma Sri. Now that I have a lot of free time, i am watching lot of TV and Youtube videos. All the more this week as i am in self quarantine along with amma and Hari as Chitta and uncle tested COVID + and we were there over the weekend !  Yesterday, i happened to watch a very interesting interview with Kaithapram along with his father in law Unnikrishnan Namboodiri (who passed away few days ago at the age of 98) and son Deepankaran. A very touching song done by him from the 25 year old movie "Deshadanam"...still touches my heart and brings tears rolling down the cheeks. Every word is so meaningful and which every mother feels for her children..My salute to thy greatness ! Kaliveedurangiyallo Movie Deshadanam (1996) Song Kaliveedurangiyallo Movie : Deshadanam Singer: Yesudas Music : Kaithapram Lyrics: Kaithapram Director: Jayaraj ******************************************************* Kalive...

My best pics are taken by the husband. His pictures taken on phone and the camera made me feel graceful ,especially when i smiled , showing off the dimples. The angle, the lighting , the background were just perfect in all his pictures. These pictures told me I am beautiful for the first time in life.  I had never been called beautiful or charming or anything close to that. In fact i was the darkest of my grandmother's grandkids, the most hairy one ,pretty plump too. At school ,though i admired boys who were studious, handsome etc, i didn't have any admirers. I did have an inferiority complex looking at the beautiful smiles, skin, hair of my other friends. Most of the girls regularly used 'Fair and Lovely' but I didn't even have the guts to ask my mother or father for it. The only makeup was the Cuticura powder and a Shinkar bindi.  But for the love showered by my teachers, I wouldn't have been a confident child. It was probably the want to be teacher's pet ...

I am on LOP leave for 3 months. Why ? Because i had developed epileptic seizures and was unable to take the stress at at work (LinkedIn was my client). This is my first time taking such a big Loss of pay break after joining Infosys (In 17 years). So it took me a while to make this decision. During college days i was very ambitious about making career , writing CAT and ding MBA from IIM or taking IAS etc but the moment marriage was fixed, they got washed away. So the point is I was doing this job for money and not because i enjoyed it. I clearly knew this is not what i wanted to but pushed myself hard to pursue. After Maternity break ,many ladies resign from IT industry due to stress. I did not. Sree pushed me and it kept me going.  US happened and I was very happy. Enjoyed the location change, work change, the respect from client and everything about Silicon Valley. FB, Yahoo Google Apple ,Cisco - all these IT giants were at a stone's throw distance from where we lived. It was a bi...

Corona time spent in Kerala had more benefits than one - It brought to life the temple lover in me.  My upbringing was strongly rooted in godliness - education in Chinmaya with regular sahasranamam and geeta chanting and the presence of tharamekkavu devi temple near house made this stronger. I firmly believed in God's power and that he was the reason behind my achievements. I was proud to be an allrounder and that even to this date my teachers fondly remember me. In 10th CBSE board, securing 94.2% and becoming the second topper in school was because of him who showered the blessing in the form of my teachers. Hearing that Chinmaya Vaduthala was more competitive and gives Entrance related coaching, i sincerely hoped to join there. But the fees being much higher ,left it to achan's decision.Travel distance was also much more, so it was a tough decision but finally he agreed. 11th fees was Rs 5000 (innathe 1 lakh probably) and i prayed hard to get scholarship. Avidem, god came to ...

2020 gifted some disappointment in both personal and work front. Project was stressful, i was diagnosed with anxiety issues and later with epileptic seizures. Kids have been defensive on every front. Online learning due to COVID-19 worsened the already bad situation with electronics gadgets playing the biggest role in their lives. Kids don't like me around now and they have been very candid about it. Till last year, Appu was a manageable kid and showed affection but he has followed his sister. There is nothing which can devastate a mother than this. Here is my first 2021 blog ... Because I did not extend my Maternity Leave and left them in the care of others to earn and pay off our home and car loans ? Because I did not use diapers for both the kids (except while going out ) which means cleaning their pee wet clothes and many times even mine during night several times. Why ? So they didn't get diaper rash Because I didn't feed them bottle milk and ended up making cerelac in...