Goggles In Space

thangay thanalay makane ninakkay jeevitham uzhinju vechee amma karuthode thirike nee varumennu nokkiyirippoo ee amma kayvalarunnathum kalvalarunnathum kandu rasichoramma kodumkattupole vanna aa bheekaran ninachirikkathe kondupoyille en makane thallikkeduthuka ammayude ullile theeyine nee thalarathe makane unarenam nee vayassaya ammakku thangavendavanalle nee unaroo, amme punaroo prarthichu prarthichu prarthichu thalarnnoree manasonnu kanenum bhagavane en makane thirike tharika nee  manam nonthu prarthikkumee amma

Inspite of being with the most beloved people, new year eve was not a very happy one. I was not in good terms with Sree and there are multiple reasons for it. Sree's behaviour when he is with 'his' people and isolating me was getting worser and worser. He has all the time in the world to talk and laugh with his people but not with me. I never realised this difference until the WFH days we spent in Kerala. During that time, he even told me to "go away"..saying i am disturbing the peace in the family. There were other bad experiences too which could have been easily avoided and for everything i am the rootcause. I started hating the house from that day.  Dec 31.. We had dinner together and went to bed before 12. No non veg as the whole week we all had lot of hotel food, beef etc. So it was chapathi and curry for dinner. There was no excitement to wait until the clock stuck 12 and we all went to bed. By then i had decided that i am not going back to Bangalore with th...

manjundedi kunju... evidepponedi kunju... -------------------------------------------------- chaya edukkan, thuni alakkan  veedu thudakkan, patram kazhukan   poram choriyan,  kunju kunju kunju.....pakshe kunju paranjal kekkula kunju paranjal cheyyula ooninu enthedee kunju korikkan enthadee kunju  cinema kanano kunju pattu kekkano kunju  (ha ha ...veruthe...) Kunju vekkanathu swadalla kunjunte ishtom ishtalla koode irikkan koodula kunju paranjal kekkula kunju paranjal pokula watsappum youtubum undallo pinne kunju undenkil entha illenkil entha ?  appol aaraanee kunju ?? ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- sreeramante pirake seetha ponathu pole bharthavinte koode santhoshayi neram pankidan agrahikkunna bharya. Bharthavinte lalanayum paricharanum orupadagrahikkunna oru manassu..malare enno, chakkare enno, karale enno onnum vilikkanda but Ammu enna vili kelkkan kathorthirikkana oru pennu..

Children After you were born, for many years i haven't thought about what 'i' like and what i don't. There was nothing called ME time until you guys planted your eyes on the laptop and plugged earphones from dawn to dusk. I was very happy with what i was doing for you. I was fine cleaning the floor every day at 11pm in the night, washing and many times ironing your wet clothes, thinking my head off on what to cook, taking you for classes, seeing you win in competitions. You both meant my universe but like many working mothers , i had my ups and downs too. No one supported my mood swings but your smiles and hugs brought the glee back in me. In every step of success, my tears of joy was there and would be. I urge you to wake up in the morning and stretch because the positive energy from the sun during the day cannot be found at night. I urge you to reduce water wastage ,reduce flush usage and reuse water for you and your grandchildren. My life is more than half over. I ge...

Yesterday i caught up with my engineering collegemates and hostelmates - Deepti,Reshma and Manju. We were meeting after about 2 years .Pre covid we had met with kids at a nice restaurant Bombay Brasserie and had lots of fun. After that we hardly connected on watsapp or phone but yesterday we spent a nice ,bright afternoon at the open lounge bar called Shift in HSR -About hostel days , whats going with the families, parents siblings , jhow each of us were tired of the jobs etc. Deepti was into painting, paper toy making etc and she just loved it. Reshu was detected of cholestrol and was on a strict cleansing diet. Alas ! She has gone back to her college day "Ujala kuppi"figure..Manju was the same and we catch up once in a while with Infy lunchmates, the last one being a couple of months ago at 46 Ounces. We just spoke non stop clicked pictures. Reshu told me she admired my brown eyes and i never knew it ! No one told me and i always lived in complex of being fat, dark and hair...

We were born in the same year, in different cities. While we both grew horizontally and vertically, the growth was very different. Our surroundings, support system and stakeholders were also different. Along with other things, learning has been a focus area for both of us all through. Fortunately, we met in 2003 , a rendezvous , which was to turn into a deep connection lasting for almost two decades. The journey onwards has been nothing less than a 'dream come true' for me and rewarding. Initial feelings of freedom and curiosity slowly turned into strive for excellence . My long time dream of going to US turned into reality. Being in Silicon valley amidst IT companies and multi culturalism brought in a fresh mindset and perspective change.  While we both had our ups and downs, the fundamental values which drove us towards the goal were similar. Our journeys were in varied directions but towards the same vision and mission. This year we both celebrated the 40th milestone birthd...

My bday cake by Sree said so...Totally loved that. Yes, i want to look and feel fab. Not dull even for a single moment. But i am scared al the time of that day when i will be driven to the operation theater and my brain will undergo the surgery. Let me forget it for sometime. Yesterday was a particularly fabulous day. First was the Sep 14th midnight cake cutting followed by a small bday present (Sleeveless top and lipstick) from Sree and a paper gift from Appu. The cake was super good and after eating lots, we all slept again. As usual woke up at 6 , fixed tea and breakfast for the family ,played baddy and then got to work. Though availing leave from office had been in my mind from last 1 week just to chill but i let it go due to lot of work. Sree left for work as they had a 1 day work from office .It kept popping in mind that this is probably my last before the surgery though i am still not even a %  ready for it. I had even imagined even a family lunch at Taj for my 40th but i wa...